I carry:
worry
extraneous papers
plans
broken pens
hairbrush
diabetes
pain relief
pain
barrettes
elastic bands
food allergy
glucose tablets
disease
maps
apologies
spare change
credit cards
relationships
license
business cards
ipod
recently purchased books
poem drafts
ideals
glucometer
insulin
pills
my friends
bag
a bottle full of water
myself
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I carry:
personality conflicts
a courier bag
a towel
swimming trunks
a book or two
rarely used journals
kryptonite bike lock
Federal savings bonds
discount cards for stores I don't frequent
ipod
your face
your memories
your smile
your voice
your wording
you
I miss you all the time.
Even when I escape the memories of your limp nostril and motionless chest.
I carry:
a notebook
a big black and red bag
pens that belonged to you
a photo of you
a photo of Matt
memories of you
memories of my sleep dreams of you
cell phone
digital camera
red tea bags
bottled water
unimaginable heartache
guilt
overpowering sense of loss
new fear
tears
regret, regret, regret
I miss you every moment of every day. The only days that are even passably okay now are those when I have dreamed of you the night before. You are mostly always the same in them....5 years old....smiling a beatific smile....short blonde hair framing your face...those beautiful blue eyes....I hold you in my arms...you wear baby blue footie pajamas...we both know you are gone and are accepting and just holding on to the few moments we are given.
You are safe in my heart, Mandy Panda. Always and forever.
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